i am not

i am not
this person
that person
whomever
you assume will fill the void
that lies within

i am not
perfection
collection
of all
those hopes and dreams you had
from childhood

i am not
fullfillment
solution
catharsis
for that pain that sunders your spirit
and sears your heart

i am not
unforgiven
condemned
endlessly
for the sins that smeared my soul
long ago and near past

i am
imperfect
broken
anguished
for the agony i have given you
and still cause

i am
forgiven
soulwashed
grace-filled
by the One who knows all and yet loves
us both

i am
struggling
yearning
learning
how to love you with greater love
than we have known

i am
you are
we are
He Is

and that is all i know